Here I am restlessly waiting, knowing I'll have to be leaving soon
I'm staring at your perfection and I never want that to end
Because, I don't want to ever have to start over
And I was always scared of the dark before
But now it's all I'm longing for
This isn't a silly moment
It's not the storm after the calm
This is the deep, fading breath of
The love we've been working on
You can't seem to hold me like I want you to
And I can't feel you in my arms
Nobody's going to come save us now
We've pulled too many false alarms.

I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to draw
This isn't nothing to me
Baby, you were the only light I ever saw
You make the most of all the tragedy
And I act like a ***** because I can
I try to push you away
And you say things that hurt me
Until we're left feeling *****
And we don't understand.
So I'll just go cry about it
And drinking is what you'll do
But I'll still hold the keys
And you'll still have the best of my memories.

Coming home when every moment there is lost
in your work
All my love and warmth turned cold as dirt
Every stare is a waste if it's not on baby girl
As strangers walk right on through
And the best of our friendship breaks in two
Now I'm feeling further from you everyday
Your head's in the stars because you're worlds away
So I tell myself I'm moving on and letting this be
We once had a fire but now we need a spark to make us last
Just look at me baby, can't you see I'm still burning for you eternally
I should probably walk away but then I look at you
And I get the feeling I should just stay
Because loosing this love, losing you, would be losing everything
So I don't care if the one thing that's killing me is wrong
Because I can't stop these feelings
I'll just continue to hold on

We once were brave like soldiers
Holding each other like we were ever so broken
Now we just need to hold this love together and be open
And it's okay to be scared
Because we've both been shaken but this doesn't have
To be the end of the love we've been making
We're burning up and I don't want this love turning
To only smoke and ashes.

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