It's gone back
To the distance
And the feelings I once had.

I'm used to these feelings
But for a few moments
I felt so high.

How is it that the emotion
That I always felt
Is bothering me now?

I shouldn't feel locked up like this.
I feel as though it's worse now
Because you've left me stranded again.

I feel as though the pain
Is ten times more hurtful
Than it was before.

I want you to embrace me like you once did.
I want you to shelter my heart with yours.
I want to go back to the spark that made me smile.

Why did you leave again?
Why did you abandon me?
I'm so afraid.

I feel that I had much less fear
When I was a little girl.
I had no fear in love.

I had no fear in emotions
And no fear in pain.
I openly expressed those things.

I was confident and well behaved.
Now it's different.
I fear love every day.

I fear the emotions that ooze through me.
And every single day,
I experience pain. Not just mentally, but physically as well.

I wish I could go back to those times
When I was just a little girl
And I was so easily living life.

I miss my childhood every day.
I miss your touch every day.
I miss you every day.