There is much to think about when I am in your presence. I first need to check myself. My headspace is clutteredandmythoughtsarestacked in the most inconvenient ways and I need to get myself together before we meet. Then, of course, is the matter of my feelings. My mind needs to be wiped clean of all this regret and all these strange new uncomfortable lies that I hold deep inside of my chest. The longer I wait the heavier my load becomes until I crumble down. I myself am not sure what comes next because I have not done these steps myself, but I am sure that there is some simple way to finally become human again.