There is much to think about
when I am in your presence.
I first need to check myself.
My headspace is
clutteredandmythoughtsarestacked
in the most inconvenient
ways and I need to get myself
together before we meet.
Then, of course, is the
matter of my feelings.
My mind needs to be wiped
clean of all this
regret and all these
strange new uncomfortable
lies that I
hold deep inside of my chest.
The longer I wait the
heavier my load becomes
until I crumble down.
I myself am not
sure what comes
next because I have not done
these steps myself, but I am
sure that there is some simple
way to finally become
human
again.