Feeling this way should
not be allowed, right
now, in the very middle
of the week. Feeling
like this is not
helpful, not
when I have homework and
test and teachers and parents
and friends? I wish
feeling like this was never
allowed, not ever, but
my genetic makeup and
predispositions and family and
world and friends
do not allow this wishful thinking
to be reality. If I must
feel like this, at least
let it be later,
during the weekend, I
will curl up with
my covers and no one
will blink an eye when
I don't leave my room
again.