i just realized that i will be doing this for years
this cycle makes me sick and i can't escapee
there are countless more days to sit through
countless more days exactly like this one
and what will i do once i've lived through them all?
and what will i go on to do?
there is the potential to get caught in another trap
at first i'll want it in the same way that i wanted this
but then i'll find that it's the same thing all over again
it could be just another misery
just another whirlpool
and i'm not sure i want to go on to find out
but there is the possibility of an adventure
which is what is keeping me going at this point
i am gambling and the odds are against me
but i still insist on playing this endless game