Get out there, my mother said, Tossing me out, Make friends Play Have fun.
Standing there Seeing other kids playing house Fighting over toys Playing tag
This is fun?
Now I still stare with hollow eyes People guffawing Gesticulating Laughing Amidst clouds of smoke And bottles of alcohol Excitedly blathering on about inconsequential **** While I blink With all the enthusiasm of a cat
I'm bored.
These...creatures Cawing nonsense to the thin air Flapping arms to illustrate Fighting over carrion Bumming sticks off me Getting my food Borrowing cash Asking favors
All this ******* noise Meaningless chatter About the flotsam of their petty existence About what happened to whom And oh my God you guys You'll never believe what who said I can't believe this and that how dare they
All this horseshit Flowing Rushing Past me Wearing down my sanity
All this hope and expectation Wasted on people On their shallow drama On the inevitable disappointments On the unnecessary negativity