i am uncomfortable in my own skin i am equally full of restless energy and void of any feeling at all i think i know why i'm like this but there's no way for this to be fixed no way for me to be fixed i want to live in a field of flowers alone with only the dirt the sky the feeling of actual earth
sometimes i think i'm okay again but then everything comes crashing down around me and i think i'd be okay again if i didn't exist if i never existed if the world had just skipped over me and i would never have had to become so utterly acquainted with this heartache and nostalgia for something i've never even had
i write these words in this format because they're constantly whispered in my mind and in my soul and it's a neverending torrent of thoughts emotions desires there is no time for a comma no time for a period time cannot be returned to me i can feel myself fading