confusion never stops
my mind can not stop running
over the faint foggy memories
of that night.

alcohol running
through my veins
moving -
conversing -  
flirting -
my body now a shell
for the alcohol to consume
take over.
become.

my soul slowly vanishing.
a new person emerging
from the dark depths
of the night.

attempting to fill
emptiness
with
meaningless-
intimacy.

blinded
from the night.
desensitized
from the poison
i willingly consumed.

so i cry
the tears stream
down my face.
begging
to remember-
why.