ABOVE AND BELOW

so you think that you know what comfort can lend?

when the days languish but the anguish won't end

why the blade cuts deeper when the knife belongs to a friend?

how it seems we can never make amends

for our cruel words rubbed into breaks that never really mend?

did you think you had the answers

to why a healthy heart so often kneels to a lonely cancer?

why love never means that you were given candor

and each of us eventually takes the stage as a lone dancer?

were you convinced that you knew

when the river would stop pushing me away from you?

whether the storm would pass on through

and which side I'd stand on after the line you drew?

did you believe the seeds we'd sewn would finally rise?

that honesty in words meant they would remove our guise ?

and that years past meant we had grown wise

or if hindsight is all that our risk ever buys?

god how I wish you were still here

to look through these eyes that see the past so clear

without the blinders of rules and fear

now that the lights are dim and there's no one to cheer

so I can hear the words that you'll love me year after year

god how I wish my wanting could make you reappear

so you thought two lives were something we could weave?

and you could tell joy's tears from the ones the regrets thieve?

but I didn't know what I could say I really believed

and I never could have been sure until I felt you leave

and now I can say that I know what it is to grieve

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