Clumsy at first even comical Staccato moves one-two-fear I can't do this - you say
You feel paralysed Giving up - before you start You long for the safety sofas at the edge of the room Huddling like an awkward teenager Hidden chats in the dark of what could have been
In the middle on the dance floor Your feet - long to listen to your urge - to leave To get away,to hide,to shut off What's the point anyway Your inner monologue asks With reverential authority
Confused standing in the middle You feel the gentle touch of your lovers eyes
Stay with me - he says I love to dance - only with you Automatically you protest and plead From the lines of your rehearsed script Wanting to go back - to sit in the dark out of the shiny disco lights
He releases you - for a moment And waits - with longing looks
You stand - alone - in the middle Of the music - the world is quite Frozen in time and space
You glance at the past Of what you have become Who the world knows you to be Who the world wants you to be You look at the present Heart thumping, sweating Messed up mascara Out of breath - yet fully alive
Slowly -slowly - something arises deep in you You take a deep breath You feel brave - softly desiring to dance
Tenderly - tenderly You become lost in him As he leads you step by step step by step And soon you discover the magic in your feet the glow in your eyes and the applause of your heart
Drenched in ecstasy crazy out of breath... You sit back on your safe sofa Just when you think the party's over You hear a familiar voice Inviting you ...
Come dance with me
4th Feb 2014 - Poem written to encourage a friend to live fully and not stay in the safe spaces of her life