it is not my name but it represents to me
being humble, obedient, and subservient
that is not me, i am not that nickname
i am not everything it represents
from my past, i am not that person any
more, so why should i keep the name of him?

now I am disobedient, rebelious and i speak
my mind, i say what others will not,
the truth that no one wants to here,
even when the lie is what should be said
i can not sit here and grit my teeth
i have to say what is on my mind
or I am nothing but a *******, that
could not even **** himself

so friends do not call me that
or our friendship will be terminated
i hate being reminded of that time,
i hate that i was so stupid
and i let myself be that person