this hurts so much

please just help me

take away the pain

and wash away the filth

in my mind and around my heart

please just help me

i want to sleep normally

and smile normally

and learn to love

please just help me

to love myself

and heal

and grow

to be better

to be whole

to no longer be empty

please just help me

find warmth amidst

the storm inside.

**-AA