I guess this was what it was like,
For my nana when she asked if it was ok for her to let go,
Cancer for her, depression for me,
How could anybody say no?,

I know now how it feels,
To live with a disease,
Eating at your body,
Begging god to just please...

Stop.

You know how when you were a kid and your mom made you smile for a photo you weren't in the mood for?
That's how this for me,
Everyone saying cheese,
Or cheer up,
Or ******* smile,
******* I don't want to,
I don't wanna be alive tonight or any night like this,
Too bad every nights like this,

I guess this is how you know I'm near the end,
When my poems are starting not to rhyme,
I'm starting to feel it in the wind,
I'm running out of time.