If I seem angry
it’s because I miss you
and I have a tendency
to have to translate my
feelings in another way

I change where I don’t
need to
because I don’t
want to
change where it
matters

I don’t know
which part is which
do I not understand
the world
or does the world
not
understand me

I’m leaning on the
past
and I’m facing
the future
and it’s only when
I fall on my back
that I see the
present

so at some point
I have to decide
where I will go
and who I’ll
leave behind

I heard it
was only
good once
and the rest
was to stave off
the withdrawals

I see in your eyes
how many times they *******
or ****** you over

Everyone wants to feel
better about themselves
because they want to
feel better
not because anyone
else
does(n’t)

Thanks
for knowing what
it’s like
to wake up
wanting to die
I like holding
your hand

if I seem angry
it’s just because
my passion for
you
is somewhere
else

because now
I
burned out
and
I’m exhausted