I need a friend and now you're gone
You said you'd stay but instead you've run.
I said I was sorry a million times,
Yet to you my sorry is lost in rhythms of rhymes.
It's a continuous cycle of yes and no,
One day you're here and the next day you go.
I can't seem to make you stay no matter what I do,
So maybe I should walk away and make me the one you lose.
You told me to make a choice, decide where you fit,
But I'm the one who has tried to bend and I'm the one whose split.
I don't know what makes you so special and I really don't care,
I just want you to stay but you won't and it seems so unfair.
What did I do but love you the best I could?
Except my love you don't want, to you it's no good.
I'm sorry I'm not your prince, I'm sorry I'm not your lover.
It just ***** those are the only roles you've left for me to uncover.
You know me better than anyone else in this world,
You know my secrets and my fears, you know me completely unfurled.
You told me what you need but now it's my turn,
I've always been told we accept the love we think we deserve.
The love I receive from you has been fickle and sparse,
Not one that will benefit my fragile heart.
It hurts to know that you can easily let go,
Of something I wish you would preciously hold.
Am I disposable, am I a bother to your life?
I'm sorry I try so hard to fit and make everything right.
I need a friend, someone constant and true,
Someone who would love me no matter their mood.
I won't settle anymore, I'm not a toy
That you can take out and play with when you want a little joy.
I know you try and love me but it's too hard,
So I will turn and walk away, I wont leave us with more scars.
I put up with so much and my armor is finally broken,
I withstood all I could, but now I have finally spoken.
I wish you would see how much I love and care,
About how I opened myself up and left myself bare.
But we're all blinded by our own points of view,
Each of our visions all torn up and askew.
I don't know what else I can say or what else I can do,
I just hope with my absence I can finally show that I truly love you.