I see you staring at me from
across the room.
You let the crumpled up paper
fall out of your hand into
the trashcan.
Your eyes stay on me as you sit back down in your new seat
almost afraid to sit next to me.
Because I now see.
And I wonder if you're looking at me and seeing
that the girl you want is everything I'm not
and that she was tearing us apart.
I don't want to pretend
because I was losing myself to someone else.