I see you staring at me from across the room. You let the crumpled up paper fall out of your hand into the trashcan. Your eyes stay on me as you sit back down in your new seat almost afraid to sit next to me. Because I now see. And I wonder if you're looking at me and seeing that the girl you want is everything I'm not and that she was tearing us apart. I don't want to pretend because I was losing myself to someone else.