I'm sorry I'm not the one you wanted
I'm sorry I even asked you
If you didn't want me,
Then why did you say yes?
To spare my feelings?
To be nice?
It'd be better if I never even asked
Cause we can't talk anymore
And I can't stand it
It's like
I try so hard
To get a thought out of you
And you either just
Look away
Pretend you didn't hear
Or you just
Give a slight chuckle
"Huh huh huh"
And nod
No words
Or little words
And I want more words
I don't care
Whether or not
You feel the same way
I just want to talk to you again
And I don't get it
Mixed signals ****
My best friends think you feel the same
And that that is why you're so awkward
But I think that you don't
And that you just want to be friends
Or not even anymore,
After my bold move
Please
Get me out of my hell
Sure,
I would be very hurt
If you had said no
But I'd rather have that than this
At least with that
We could still talk
Have actual conversations
Conversations with two sides
Two equal sides
Sides that actually cared
I'm sorry I even bothered
To go after you
I should have left it alone
And that's why I never do this
This is why I never take chances
Sure,
Someday it might work
Just maybe
I'll find someone
And love them
And the feeling would be mutual
But I'm impatient
I'd rather just not try
Just say "**** it,
I'll never win."
And move on
At least then I won't get frustrated
Or get hurt
Really,
I'd rather be just friends with you
Than be whatever the hell we have
This awkward ****
It *****.