I heard: "When one door closes another opens". But if the hinge is rusted or stuck? How long to wait for the door to open?
It's about those decisions that matter in life (not that all would not matter). you face them every time when your principles, culture and values are put in balance.
To evolve and to develop your own personality while life puts you always in tough situations is admirable! So you wake up with a social entity, professional and spiritual enviable.
Once there, you (re)smart yourself before a new beginning. now... the door is open.