I have ****** things up
So much for myself
I have fallen in love
With damaged people
Who I cannot help
(Though I try. God do I try)
And I have laid awake
At 3am
Thinking of things I should
Or shouldn't have said
And I convince myself
I am numb
And I am dead
But when there's blood
Flowing from my legs
And I am starving
For his smile
It hurts like hell
But at least I'm feeling
something