my parents taught me
that manipulation is a form of love
and keeping yourself hidden is the only way to survive
my first love taught me
that the only way to receive love
is to use your body not your heart or mind
the one i loved most taught me
that you have to give everything
until you are nothing
my best friend taught me
that perfection is more important than beauty
and sometimes you have to cheat to get what you want
the one who loved me most taught me
that people are intricate beings and you never really know someone
and *** and love can't exist together
so now
i love the ones who manipulate me
i keep myself hidden
i use my body not my mind
i **** in my stomach and only eat when people are watching
and have *** with strangers