Today if you had asked me what love still meant to me I would look at you, diving in the abyss of your brown eyes and look at you look at me.
I'll tell you that I loved you before the first spark ever hit your armoured heart to light an everlasting fire.
That the words which escaped you cascaded down on me like a million rivers unfolding to reveal their anger they kept hidden long enough to allow the heat to die down on their own.
That the truth in things didn't exist in the ways, in people like we wanted to.
If love was an inferno to walk through you know I would. That with every burning touch of the coal beneath my feet would be another step closer to victory, closer to you. That this was the painful esctasy of love, and every ember was like the ones that burnt in me for you.
And I would tell you that you were worth it. You were worth it all.
Today, you sent me a box full of chocolate and poetry and beautiful things.
You must have known your gift was unwanted. You must have.
You must have known that I would read your name and address with dread, a hint of panic, with confusion and consternation.
You must have known that I would tuck the box beneath the table and try to ignore it for hours, until its presence needled me like a thorn needing to be plucked out.
You thought you sent love and affection in a box, but you sent a reminder, one of wounds and worry, a reminder that gifts and well-wishes do not heal bruises and never will.
I would send it back full of wolves if I could.
Return To Sender from my favorite poet, Gabriel Gadfly. Truly said.
Looking at the poem I posted last year, life has changed a lot. For the better, I hope.