I like when silence fills my veins and the distant hum of civilization is barely in my ear. I like when the steam from my cup of tea fogs up my glasses and I have to put down my book for a second just so I can wipe them. I like when I get lost in the pages of a book and it feels like I'm watching a film in my head; making it up as I go.

I enjoy being alone.

Though, I do not enjoy when I'm lonely. I hate when I'm in a room filled with people and everyone seems to be laughing and having a good time while I'm by the corner wondering where to begin. I hate when I start talking and then gradually fade out because I've realized that no one gives a **** about what comes out of my mouth unless it's blood. I hate when I ask for help and I can physically see someone getting annoyed with me and roll their eyes wishing to be anywhere else. I hate when I find myself the loneliest when I'm surrounded by a group of people.

I enjoy being alone.