I see you every day but I never know how you're doing in the fleeting moment when your eyes met mine, I fail to see that they don't glimmer with happiness to see me anymore just a mirage that has been fooling me all this while so it's funny the way it tickles when I realise you're slipping away through my fingers a sandstorm I created with my own hands that I have no control of and I hate that when I ball up my fist, I feel like I'm suffocating you in the end I chose to let you go and leave the remaining grains of sand to be a memoir of your existence.
Why do I feel like it's a joke when I reminisce us why do I allow myself to be your puppet why do I fall apart at the thought of you when I once let you be the reason for my confidence but I want to laugh so hard at where we are now- you look at me in the eyes as if I don't know what the hell I'm doing and it's stupid because I'm letting you go for the final time after all that I've done for you after all that you've done to me because I'm tired of the same punch line.
I compare you to so many things you're not like the sun peeking through my window when I wake up on the right side of the bed like the bliss of having 2 classes in a day and all this is funny because now, you're more like the scorching 1 p.m. heat when I'm walking back to my dorm from campus, the surge of frustration and anger pumping through my veins after class because I'm hot-tempered and short-circuited all in one and I let you explore which of my buttons to push; your fingertips left me with bruises.
Even though I loved you, it's not ******* funny how much I hate you now.