I looked and realized that my
Hands were shaking terribly
I never would have known if I
Had not been faking security

I didn’t know how I should start, but
There was nothing said
Words were simply lost on me, what
I wished I was loving instead

You were my only fear, and I
Hid the selfishness
I only wanted to run and hide
Ineffectiveness

Maybe there was something more, that
I had never thought
Perhaps I had come too soon, at
The conclusion it was rot.