I  see us dancing
Your hand on my scars
Our first kiss
Holding my hand
Your smile
You hate me
You hate me
You hate me
You hate me
I ****** it all up
Everything
I had been so happy
You were my world,
My sun.
You were my everything.
I don't know why I did it
I don't know.
I told you I hurt everybody I loved
I told you that I would hurt you.
But then I lied to myself that I wouldn't.
And I believed that lie.
Until several demons knocked and
reminded me of the truth
I hate them.
I hate me.
I hate everything.
But you.
I don't, can't, won't hate you.
I love you...
But those three words
They are fragile, you see.
They break easily if meant to be broken.
I don't know
I DON'T KNOW
I DON'T ******* KNOW
I want to hold you
To kiss you
To see you smile
But I can't because I destroyed those.
And I don't even know if I can fix
them, no matter how hard I try.
I feel like my mind is going mad,
driving itself crazy
And in the middle
Sits the calmest, but the worst crazy.
It's called the truth.
I hurt you. And I don't know if I can fix you.
I'm so sorry.
I don't even know if they matter to you but
I am so so sorry.