Today would've been one year.

I put on my darkest lipstick,
and my black stockings,
and went to that pretentious
coffee shop in the next town over.

I told that curious man,
that my name was Jane,
and I was fresh out of college,
looking for life.

My smoothie tasted like pennies,
but cost me five dollars,
and it reminded me of you,
because you were ****** too.

I told myself I would be adventurous,
and started to drive to a beach,
even though it's January,
and I hate the water.

I yearn to find life,
but I guess I only check the places,
where I've already been,
and find disappointment instead.