Distinguished Demons lay beneath my feet even though the angles sleep apon my shoulders.  To run away and hide, to do bad things knowing people need me, these things I will never do.  My mother watches over me, I can tell she keeps me safe.  Times like these I wish she would look else where. Forgive me mother  for the things I do, forgive me mother for the pain I brought you. Honestly I pray to keep the peace but at this moment I wish to bring pain on anyone that sees me. You have no clue what it's like, you have no idea what it's like to feel empty, cold or alone, to know your so in love with someone but can't look into their eyes. You preach about endless Denial saying there's no one that would treat me right!? The things I wish I could say to you with out making you feel the need to take your life!  You know nothing on life you say you do but you are blind.  Take a walk through my shoes and you might understand life can't be such a delight. You can argue and say you were so cool and I had it all! What you don't see is where I came from and what I had to do to get where I am now. Growing wasn't all that easy for me. Could you Imagine no presents under the tree? Could you? Have someone you love steal from you just so they could hurt them selves. Would you let them? Being the one in the class not invited on the trip *** they think your just a little to weird. Would you be upset? I can tell you I know what not to expect! I know I would never allow it to happen again! And the answer is yes I cried every night alone knowing no one thought to even invite me. These things I have Experinced! I know what it's like at the bottom of the totem pole. The difference between me and you is I don't complain about the things that are a problem, I take them and make myself stronger knowing that one day things will get better. Stop loathing on your miscumseptoons *** life won't ever be handed to you! I thank my mother for that.