naturally,
after we leave,
everything seems to get better.
not that we took it for granted
no, really, we didn't.
we were:
test subjects
guinea pigs
a band of misfits searching for the positive
yet somehow remaining apathetic.
I somehow expected you to be like us
a little less caring
a little less bothered
that's what I expected, not this..
subdued insecurity manifested in your eyes
they keep darting around
looking for answers in a scallop
or in the bottom of a coffee cup
silence where you should be laughing sits
hanging heavily on your shoulders,
making your natural slouch even worse
...I wonder if you noticed that your eyes are getting bluer
we learned once in english class that films use blue to represent anxiety
that the churning sea is symbolic of a churning mind
we never learned that you can spot that in a man
so lost in his worry that he can't see
...his eyes are getting bluer.