I was a child filled with wonder
filled with love and curiosity.
I was a child who loved questions
and to wander without anxiety.
Not even a year old
had my heart turned cold.
As a child,
I was relied on,
depended on,
beaten on.
As a child,
I only knew pain,
heartache
and how life
truly was.
Life wasn't fair
not even to a child.
Not to a child's heart
without a care.
Only a few rays of light
shed through the cracks
in the wall of my heart.
Not even an adult
had my eyes become
so old . . .so alone.
The only thought that remained
"Become stronger. Stronger.
No limitations, no excuses."
I had to be stronger for her.
So she wouldn't crumble.
I have become stronger
but I have become a stranger.
My strength leaves me though,
when he holds me tightly.
His arms become my home.
and his heart is my life.
This was my answer,
she has also grown stronger.
I have been on autopilot all along.
I should have just known.
I am Strong on my own.
But I am Stronger
with the friends I have found.