They think I'm tough
They think I'm strong
They never knew all along

I'm so alone I'm so afraid
I don't have enough strength to be brave

Why do you want me dead?
I just lie and cry instead

I ravage my body
I feed the pain
Why do so many people know my name
I didn't want this kind of fame

You hit me and you hit hard
I'm playing my last card

I don't want to live this life
I'll just end it with a knife

You only say you sorry when I'm gone
You only say you cared when I'm gone

I have no tomorrow
I know only pain and only sorrow

You hurt my body but you broke my spirit
And I can't ever repair it

I made mistakes I did the wrong
I made it look like I was strong

My body bleeds in places
Cutting for all the angry faces

Why do I deserve this fate
I move from state to state

No mothers love can ease this now
No father can kiss my brow

I am alone without a friend
I will never ever mend
Don't you care
Don't you know
This is how my life will end

With memories of what could have happened
But I'm blocked by pain and many hands
Just to hurt not help me stand

With one word and one command
They hit me now with blows so hard
I lay in silence I'll just listen

I drink the cup of poison
Will I die today

Dear God take me
Take me now I pray

Only when I'm gone
Will you say your sorry

Only when I'm gone
Will you listen to my story

Only when my body is the ground
Will you hear my voice crying out loud

When I cant see the sun
For fear of recognition

When my stone stands tall and is marked with words
Like the blade marks in my skin
My body is cold my body is thin

Only when I'm gone
Only when I'm gone
Will you see the beauty and pain within