Why does seeing your name drive me so crazy
Every time you even like my page
I think there's some weird underlying meaning
That you might deep down in that beautiful ****** up heart of yours
There might be some bizarre love left for me
you probably would just want ***
I thought I meant more to you than that
Just a wet hole for you to stick
That part of yours I once believed was sculpted by the hands of the gods themselves
Call me crazy now
But **** those fire works would explode when we kissed
The first time we what I thought was making love
I saw shooting stars exploding
Like a universal connection
You said you felt the same way
you called me the beautiful artistic lady from space
I can literally recall every single, talk, movie we watched, places we went, drugs we did, beer we drank, concerts, even ******* dates, we had together!
Do you know how ******* sick I think this is too?
It lasted five months
And then I found out about all the other girls you made feel the same way
One of them even came up to me at a bar
Knew my name and everything
You said she was just trying to ruin our "relationship"
Nice word usage there
But later you told me it was really a choice between me and her
But she was the one who inspired you
Ha
You even had the ******* nerve to say that I wasn't the only girl that you made cry
And that courtesy call was at three in the morning three weeks after I hadn't talked to you
And found out you have a new girl friend on the one and only wonderful social network called facebook
And that wonderful news was two days after you
Said you loved me
Told me we were more than friends but didn't want a girlfriend
Used me up
not even a kiss on the cheek
just a hug goodbye
And then that was it
I saw you one last time after all this
On my 22nd birthday at a concert
I tried so hard to be overly nice like I always was
And act like it didn't bother me
I mean as much as you can when you drunk on your birthday at a concert
Then you moved to California
That was seven months ago
Almost a year
Two months longer than I was even seeing you for
And then you call me out of the blue
Your in town it's the last day until you leave
Do I want to hang out
I want to be your friend
I miss you
Stay in touch
I want to know about your band
Will I please come hang out you'd really like to catch up
...and now I can't stop thinking about you
And ranting about you apparently
And I'm in love with someone else
And I'm friends with you and your girlfriend
So I can see the love you share
As I'm sure you see mine
But yet still every time I see your name
And think about what you did to me
I die a little inside
I could still cry
I just don't understand why the **** did you just not be honest with me
I would have understood
But I instead act overly nice like always to you and now to your girlfriend too
So you won't ever really know, or maybe you do.
And this poem is for both of you
Because you'll never see it.