When i think of you
I want to hurt you.
Kicking myself for not taking advantage of the opportunities
With past lovers hell even strangers
All in the effort to be perfect
The perfect girlfriend and "wife"
For a crook now facing life
Blinded in love
I couldn't see or maybe i wouldn't see
You for who you truly are
Unstable and illogical at your core
A ******, i know, i think you're not
But the man for me
Unfortunately, you'll never be
So disappointed in my contentment with denial
A marriage announcement
I'm too embarrassed to cancel
Earnest attempts to start a family
Breaking my heart every month
You've increased my pain exponentially
And in a display of complete lunacy
You have the audacity to make demands of me
And use my past against me
Well guess what, I'm no longer blinded
In retrospect, all you had to offer
Was *** and companionship
As if *** is everything
Well it is something
Just not enough
And i refuse to carry baggage
For you who refuses to admit
To me or better yet, yourself
That not only are you
Not a man, but
Not one who deserves me