I always feel so alone
Laying in my bedroom
Everyone I desire is out of sight
Everything I want doesn't seem worth the fight
It's hard for me to ignore
The heavy weight on my shoulders
Pressure from my family
To do a certain thing
And be a certain way
Pressure from outsiders
To feel things I can't feel
And do things I've never done before
I don't know who I am anymore
I've lost myself in my sorrow
It cannot be found
I've been searching long and hard
But I think the changes are permanent
I am no longer the same
I wish I could start over
And get another name
I want to go away
And forget about everyone I know
Just like they forget about me
Maybe I'll find someone new
Perhaps I'll develop a new passion
I'm tired of this life of mine
I'm too cowardly to end it
So I'll just sit here
Continuing to fail
From digging myself out of this hole
Maybe one day I'll get the courage
To go somewhere new
And start over