We sat on that ledge passing cigarettes between us breath thick with cold as white as our smoke, we spoke into the 3am darkness about football and how I've never seen a sunrise, about things that i can't remember except that they pulled giggles deep from my throat mixing with our smoke and our breath you told me that you think of me all the time and don't know why, my lips craving to tell you all i should've told you, instead i made you give me that cigarette burn because you had one and i wanted our skin to sizzle simultaneously, pain strung together by my giggles and our smoke and our breath thick with jealousy and lies and always thinking about you.