Is this it, is this the final sign that I am damaged beyond repair? Not only am I now scared of her blows, I'm sitting frozen in the middle of all the what-ifs. These cuts you riddled me with in great swathes of pain, aren't healed as I thought they were, they are now bleeding and stinging me years later. Learning that you are so much weaker than you thought and so much more broken makes you ask whether you will ever be whole.