i don't get myself
the swirls in my mind
won't stop telling me
that everyone secretly
hates me.

i ask them
everyday, they look at me
like i'm crazy.

what's wrong with me?
why can't i open the gate
to my fragile little heart
and let someone care about me?

always searching for someone to love me,
because i can't ******* love myself.

and always doubting their love,
because i can't ******* love myself.