I find it pathetic
that I made you
the center of my world
after everything you did to me and
I'm trying to live without you
but it feels so empty and
its even more pathetic
that you still mean the world to me
more than anything else ever had and
I'm not even allowed on your property
so
the situation, it
it finds me pathetic
laughing in my face
I can not pretend
it is laughing with me