The night hasn't came yet
But the light, I barely see them
How did I get here?
In this long dark tunnel
Alone
And it's cold
I found myself
Wrapped with nothing
But misery
Wonder if I would ever be free?

But
Do I want to be free?
I don't know
I don't know what I want
I don't know what I'm searching for
Is it freedom? Is it love?
Are those the solutions
To my problems?

I'm surrounded by darkness
So darkness I became
At first I thought I needed
Just some time alone
But
I came to realise
That I need it way too often

I don't hate everyone
I don't hate this world either
I don't know
I just feel like by distancing myself
Everything feels much better
It's just that
Life is so cruel
One moment, I'm the happiest girl
The next second
I found myself crying to some sad songs
One moment, it was perfect
But you know what they said
Some things are
Just too good to be true
Again, I'm an emotional wreck

It's tiring
I gotta admit that
But if I gave up now
What have I gained?
Nothing, absolutely nothing
I know I have to move on
I know I have to keep moving forward
And I will

But not now

At this crucial moment
I need some time alone
So just let me be
And don't even bother to come search for me