I just want to go home
But, I don't know where that is

I grab my hair, wanting to yank it out in frustration
Close to screaming til my lungs collasp

But, if someone were to come to my aid
I wouldn't know what to tell them, or where to take me

I'm missing a place... Can't take my eyes off what I think it is
My hearts so torn, it floats above me in microscopic pieces

I don't bother trying to put in back together
I truthfully don't know how

I always gripe how my sister is never satisfied with anything or anyone in life
But maybe, that person is me

And I'll forever be tangled in past hopes, loves and what ifs
Chasing something I can never catch

Last night was New Year's Eve
I waited and watched the ball drop at midnight

Everyone cheers with excitement for all they promised themselves this new year will bring
A new date doesn't mean **** to me

I've been saying the same promises, with the same stupid smile on my face since 2007
Look at me in this abandoned street with a tear stained face... What's changed?

My heart didn't shatter this year
It broke into a million pieces so many years ago and I've just been staring at its destructive paths

So maybe I'm the one whose never satisfied
Or maybe I crave change but, am too **** lazy to just do it

How the **** am I living this way?
The air I breathe is toxic, the roads i follow are nothing more than tragic circles

This is all too dramatic
But, I don't force these tears to fall and I don't lie about the demons I fight inside

All my life, I've just wanted a home
Somewhere that I just belong to

But this circle keeps me lost and dizzy
Making it almost impossible to get a grip on my jumbled thoughts

I'm begging for you, for anyone, just say it's going to be ok
Lie to me if you must, but be convincing, and don't walk away until I muster the strength to start putting my heart back together

Because all I want is to go home
Would you be kind enough to point me in the right direction?

Wipe away all of these worthless self doubts
And melt my frozen feet from this empty space