The "I should have known"s
The regrets
The time wasted

                                  I can waste my time. But others,
                                                others cannot waste mine.
Anger.

The "how could I be so stupid"s

Dis
         App
                     Ointment

I let them lift me up so high
I let them in
And up is where they leave me
They leave me
And it's my fault
It has to be
And what goes up must come down
And down I go so fast
Crashing to the pavement
I break all my bones

Every **** time
And I never learn
And I never completely close my heart

I should

Hire 1000 of the king's strongest if only to protect

But all the king's horses and all the king's men
Won't put me together again