My words may be distasteful
least they are true
My words may be distasteful
But your actions disgust me
You and your cigarette breath
Your lies
Your actions and words are one in the same

Editing
Yet worsening
Criticizing
Now there's tears
Knowing what you want
Knowing how to get there
Fear leads you elsewhere
So real here
that it is absolute
This is forever
Nothing
A black hole
Never to escape

I had reasons,
But now they're gone
I found love
And since have lost it

Because as complex as we are,
It's easy to simplify.
We can harness what is around us.
You want it or you don't.

The "I should have known"s
The regrets
The time wasted

                                  I can waste my time. But others,
                                                others cannot waste mine.
Anger.

The "how could I be so stupid"s

Dis
         App
                     Ointment

I let them lift me up so high
I let them in
And up is where they leave me
They leave me
And it's my fault
It has to be
And what goes up must come down
And down I go so fast
Crashing to the pavement
I break all my bones

Every **** time
And I never learn
And I never completely close my heart

I should

Hire 1000 of the king's strongest if only to protect

But all the king's horses and all the king's men
Won't put me together again

You and I.
It ended where it began.
When it began.
How and why it began.
It was all
Finite.
My words,
Cold and sharp.
My words,
Harsh and quick
-clean break-
Runaway faster
Cover the emotions
Let the words be empty
Let them mean nothing
Let you mean nothing
To me
Anymore.

Without second thought
You are gone.
I created this
I created the you my heart cannot bear
I say when you leave
You leave now.
No tears
El corazon mio
No existe.
My soul is stuck here
But I'll let yours leave.

I wish I could let you have me
-Not the way you had me last night-
I cannot bring myself
To open up.
I will not sacrifice my life for love
Oh how I wish I could
I wish I could

I will shut you out
And out you shall stay
With all of the other dogs,
Though a dog you are not.

Your song is sweet.
Your smile is genuine.
Your love is dangerous, dangerous to me.

But I, the *****, cannot.
I, the *****, will not.
I deserve better,
And so do you.

I drink to every night that you don't text me
Wasted
That girl up on the bar
Making a fool of herself
Mumbling, slurring

What we once had is no more
So brief, I should have known
Blame myself. All of it.

Silly boy, don't you know.
You are the kind.
The kind of boy that does this.
The kind that breaks girls.
Kills their spirits.
Turns them heartless.

The next girl to blow you off,
The next unforgiving ***** to ruin your day with her condescending, catty comments?

She had a spirit once
She once lived
She was once carefree and full of love

You took her happiness in hand
Grew it, fostered it,
let it fly,
And then destroyed it.

You killed her

You drove her to bottles
Those of alcohol, those of pills
Her addiction that she's now just over
She may be better.
She's still broken.

The insecurities and depression still linger.

Silly boy, you didn't think
You don't realize
The chaos
The headaches
The stupidity
She felt

You're ******* horrible.