I have these scars on my elbows They're from a long time ago And I never really appreciated their protrusion until now Pretending to prefer unblemished skin But when I was 10 and still believed in Superman I had a tendency to ride my bike with stuntman speed Forgetting about the frivolous concerns that consumed me Hoping my kryptonite never crept up from underneath sidewalk bumps Flipping my ambition over handlebars Leaving the pieces of my reflections painted crimson along the asphalt Scattered like hand-picked petals of an ill-advised ascetic I am me, I am not, I am me, I am not So I always wore my helmet as a precautionary measure It contained my thoughts from running straight through my skull And becoming neighbors with the pavement But I never wore my elbow pads They collected dust beside the waste bin Replacing security for sincerity I improved my flexibility while losing some skin And that was a trade off I was willing to make at the time I finally felt alive I was invincible on my bicycle The sidewalk my only bully The summer breeze my only friend And at the time I never realized what it meant to be vulnerable But those bike rides were the closest I would get I was fixated on fitting in around my classmates Accumulating fake friends by Ripping insincerities out of my esophagus And stapling them to my forehead I stole my own identity Morphing my puzzle piece and jamming it into the jigsaw Claiming to be the missing link everyone was searching for But what am I searching for?
I was lost on my own yellow brick road I had two left feet and no right way to go I stopped dead in my tracks Hoping the soles of my feet would soak in the golden stones while Singing Dorothy's hymn like spoken sin I just want to fit in I just want to fit in I just want to fit in Wondering if that was loud enough for Oz to hear me I didn't have any magic slippers And this situation was twisting towards witchcraft I'm not even sure Oz can help me You see these requests were a tall order for a tiny man Who wore masks just like me Oz and I were anonymous Oz and I were synonymous Using smoke and mirror tactics to terrorize the innocent When in reality we were only playing tricks on ourselves Hiding behind perfectly sculpted ****** expressions And make-believe manuscripts Doing basic impressions of manufactured mannequins Out in the real world I really needed to speak with the Scarecrow The Tinman, the Lion, and Dorothy too And investigate their stresses with relentless pursuit
The Scarecrow would tell me Wisdom is wasteful for those Without a strong appetite for improvement But sometimes common sense can lead The most sensible person astray The Tinman would tell me Compassion is constructed for Tender hands to hold But sometimes empathy can leave The most charitable person betrayed The Lion would tell me Courage can be critical in Times of distress But sometimes vulnerability can make The most sensitive person brave And Dorothy would tell me Home is paradise Wrapped in picket fences But sometimes a terrifying trip can bring The most wary person escape And suddenly it would occur to me That strengths are just solid scars We have confidence to display on our sleeves And perfection can only permeate the souls willing to recognize That faults shine golden too So from here on out I'm placing my masks alongside my elbow pads Both collecting dust beside the waste bin Replacing security for sincerity Finally embracing the scars on my skin Now that is a trade off I'm willing to make Because I want to feel alive again