i have found
that it is much easier
to be not good enough
than to be the best

and i've been told
that if i could only see
the best of myself
i would be happy

but it's funny, this feeling
it comes not from a lack
but from a surplus
i am a surplus
of "not enough"s
and it's not that i don't see
the best in me
it's that i see
the best in everyone else
and it's better than my best