hurts to be alive
feelings floating around
rejected
feeling stupid
all over the place
anytime your heart is invested
how does it get tested
again
if it already knows
what isn't real
does it find something else
to convince them
that it's beyond *** appeal
and flash
it's not just the pan
it's the grill
the charcoal
everything else is extra
to make the fire start
you have the matches
she's got the kerosene
i know it's harrowing
to allow oneself
to get inside the barrel
float down the current
off the waterfall
you can't call
the shots
like a gun pop
down your throat
through your spine
but it's nothing to worry about
just read your lines