I am still awake at every 3am Because I get scared of my own imagination These meds are making me mad I dreamt the other night of torturing a girl I used to know I beat her blind with a belt with no control over myself And I woke up and I saw her face throughout the day Unable to stop thinking about what I’m turning into I dreamt the other night of an elaborate funeral I was the main attraction Walking up to the open casket Only to look in and see myself My mother had dressed me in a skirt I’ve always hated I dreamt the other night I was staring death in the face But really it was just a mirror Tinged with seven years of bad luck and depression It has broken me I can only be found in shards of anxiety Brush me up from the floor to stop anyone else hurting themselves Throw me away Throw me into the sea And see How long it takes for glass to turn into sand.