Dec 2013
Shut your bloodshot eyes
Release your tight fists
Take a deep breathe
And come to your senses
No not sight
Not hearing either
Neither taste nor touch
But something more
A gut feeling
Instincts
Emotions
Instinct
Listen to your heart
And your unconscious mind
Thoughts can betray you
Or can they aid you
There it is again the question
The quandary that’s reoccurring within me
Do I go on emotion or thought?
Feeling or thinking
If I close the door the room shall implode
But I want the door shut
Maybe threes a way
Can’t talk it out
The volume turns up
The blood boils and my nerves percolate
Howling obscenities then hyperventilate
Striding in a cloud of lust searching for an outlet to release my demons
The walls shake
The sound bouncing off of them
Tears fall to the floor
Bonds are broken
The table does 360 in the air
Who had done that I have no idea
I am grabbed
No way
Fighting and grappling slamming against the walls
Pulling screaming
Punching
Pushed into the door
Push through the TV
Runs to the phone
To alert the police
Cast out
Forced to leave
Out in the streets
Presenting to the neighborhood our dysfunctionality
A heated punch to the car
A bone broken
A bridge burned
I walk away
I sit on the curb
To catch my breath
To calm down
3 cops pull up
Hot and ready to bust some heads
Firing questions
Ulterior motives are obvious
I can see their 2nd face
They come as friends and open ears
The tale is told
And their friendly aura disintegrates
And they treat me as a criminal
Putting me down
Talking down
Looking down
I spit at them
No respect
Talk to me as if I was a human
An equal
Not some animal
Come back to earth
You say the same thing
You think I’m on mars
But you’re all the way on Neptune
And I’m right here on a curb in a suburb
Of the county of Bergen
Or were both lost
Deep in the Milky Way
Neither is right
Let’s agree to disagree
My hands busted
My family’s torn
My girls crying
I fall
This is where going on emotion got me
There was no thought
And if there was it was evil
And spiteful
I begin to think
Using logic
Reasoning with all that occurred
I’m caught between the two
Can’t have one without the other
In all decisions
Over thinking
Over emotional
Balance
Balance is key
Release your tight fists
Take a deep breathe
And come to your senses
No not sight
Not hearing either
Neither taste nor touch
But something more
A gut feeling
Instincts
Emotions
Instinct
Listen to your heart
And your unconscious mind
Thoughts can betray you
Or can they aid you
There it is again the question
The quandary that’s reoccurring within me
Do I go on emotion or thought?
Feeling or thinking
If I close the door the room shall implode
But I want the door shut
Maybe threes a way
Can’t talk it out
The volume turns up
The blood boils and my nerves percolate
Howling obscenities then hyperventilate
Striding in a cloud of lust searching for an outlet to release my demons
The walls shake
The sound bouncing off of them
Tears fall to the floor
Bonds are broken
The table does 360 in the air
Who had done that I have no idea
I am grabbed
No way
Fighting and grappling slamming against the walls
Pulling screaming
Punching
Pushed into the door
Push through the TV
Runs to the phone
To alert the police
Cast out
Forced to leave
Out in the streets
Presenting to the neighborhood our dysfunctionality
A heated punch to the car
A bone broken
A bridge burned
I walk away
I sit on the curb
To catch my breath
To calm down
3 cops pull up
Hot and ready to bust some heads
Firing questions
Ulterior motives are obvious
I can see their 2nd face
They come as friends and open ears
The tale is told
And their friendly aura disintegrates
And they treat me as a criminal
Putting me down
Talking down
Looking down
I spit at them
No respect
Talk to me as if I was a human
An equal
Not some animal
Come back to earth
You say the same thing
You think I’m on mars
But you’re all the way on Neptune
And I’m right here on a curb in a suburb
Of the county of Bergen
Or were both lost
Deep in the Milky Way
Neither is right
Let’s agree to disagree
My hands busted
My family’s torn
My girls crying
I fall
This is where going on emotion got me
There was no thought
And if there was it was evil
And spiteful
I begin to think
Using logic
Reasoning with all that occurred
I’m caught between the two
Can’t have one without the other
In all decisions
Over thinking
Over emotional
Balance
Balance is key
