red dress in the closet shots, shots, shots best friends shots, shots, shots, attractions tension shut down shut down shut down boys cry? failure used till emotionally exhausted kissing against the closet life planned out on notebook paper pressure shots, shots, shots tears squats and drops and swim and swim and swim silent screams pack up & move disqualification I told you I was trying my hardest imprisoned in my own body 25 extra lbs. gasping rushing only silence when everyone sleeps 5.8% my *** failure failure fat *** business minor screams breathes in nothing but fear disappointment kicks into gear holidays come two weeks
these are what the devil in my mind keeps chanting as I progress though my first year at college.