Last night,
I dreamt of him.
Kissing me,
Softly and sweetly.

But I find no attraction
To him in myself
Or at least
Not in his body.

I think I deserve
All a guy can offer
Good personality
Decent physicality.

So why do I dream
Of this very thing
I wish to avoid?

And its especially worse
When dreams are as rare
As a diamond in perfect cut
In the endless swirl in my head.

Online interpretation says
It could be
That I simply respect and adore him
I hope thats so.

I cannot take much more
Of this draining thing
Painful, manipulative thing
Called love.