I don’t know what’s happening to me,
My whole world is collapsing.
I thought I could carry your secrets and mine
But I’ve become shattered
By the weight of it all.
Why can’t I sleep?
My mind just won’t stop
Shouting words of agony into my ears
Telling me ways to destroy myself.
Louder and LOUDER
They shriek,
Ringing in my ears every where I go.
Burn burn BURN
Puke puke PUKE
YOU DESERVE PAIN.
The worst thing is,
I have to carry this by myself.
I can’t tell you,
You have it worse,
I can’t ruin you
The way you ruined me
When you told me.
So I have to say silent,
I must stay silent
To save you.
The whispers become so loud
That I’m physically gasping
For air.
I reach to my phone but
The dark screen tells me
This is fate.
I’m so sorry,
I was supposed to be strong but I failed.
I failed.